My love life ?

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog I decided to bring a little lovey-dovey moment into my blog due to Valentine’s Day arriving soon, so I thought I’d mention a little bit of my bachelorette life as well as taking you through the journey on loving myself for who I am and how I became confident of myself so grab a snack ? or a drink ? and get comfortable ?, because this blog post is going to be the one to remember ❤️.

(DISCLAIMER: This is only my personal side on my love life along with my personal struggles on accepting myself and loving myself for who I am.)

Before I start telling you about my love life I thought I’d give you a little bit of a story on what caused me to become image-conscious of myself before moving on towards my love life and how it impacted me on finding the one.

I started to struggle on understanding myself for who I am by witnessing some girls from secondary school being skinny and some of them were even relationships as well (talk about growing up too fast) but that’s not the reason why I had a hard time on loving myself for who I am. In fact it was well… because of both boys and girls at secondary school (well at least some of them) have been calling me names based on my appearance. They said that I was too fat when clearly someone else is bigger than me along with the fact that I looked like a man in disguise due to my hairy arms and legs ? (I mentioned about this on my teen life and my continued teen life blog posts so feel free to go and check them out.)

Despite the negativity that I’ve received from the skinny girls and the name calling boys who don’t have anything better to do, there are some good people in school who do appreciate me for who I am and liked me for my bubbly personality along with my sense of humour, even though some of the jokes I made are not funny as they would be, they still look at me in a positive perspective and not in a negative perspective of myself as a human being.

“Love yourself first and everything falls into line.”

Lucille Ball

A few years later, one guy came up to me and was really interested on going out with me and I immediately said yes without hesitation. However another part of me wanted to say no after I rejected a number of guys asking me out all because of the fact that I wasn’t ready to commit into a relationship first until I completely loved myself and when I do reject them, they tend to look at me as if I was acting like a baby, but the real truth is that I was overthinking on how they would react if I told them I had autism after being told by number of people saying I don’t look autistic to them (check out the my life, childhood, tween and teen life being autistic blog posts). I realised what I have done I’ve decided to end it right there and then with him and that’s also when he decided to say that I was acting like a baby behind my back.

“Self love. It doesn’t mean that everyone will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. It means that you won’t let them change the way you see yourself; nor will you stick around for them to destroy you.”

Tony A. Gaskins JR

After distancing myself away from that gentleman and realising that he is seeing someone else, I realised I needed a wake up call to remind myself that I don’t need to be with somebody to complete me and that person is going to be me and if I can embrace myself without having a boyfriend/partner, you can do it as well and why you might ask? Because at the end of the day life is too short on trying to please people when we all should be able to please ourselves first and I wish you all a very Happy Valentine’s Day ❤️ or Galentine’s Day ?/Palentine’s Day ?? if you are single like myself ☺️.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my love life and don’t forget to leave a comment below and tell me how do you embrace yourself for who you are and manage to love yourself too. ???