How social media affected my body confidence and self esteem

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog is going to be on how social media affected my body confidence and self esteem in both positive and negative perspective and yes unfortunately this also includes Instagram and how it really affected me in a negative way along with other influential people that helped me realise that I don’t need to be the next someone else and be inspired to be myself without worrying about anybody else. So grab a snack ? or a drink ?and get comfortable ?, because this one will make you think ? before you react on social media and outside of social media too.

(DISCLAIMER: This is only on my point of view on how social media affected my body confidence and self esteem. It is NOT a way of promoting any body shaming activities to those who are currently having or going though the same issue as I am going through by scrolling through social media and we MUST love ourselves for who we are. No matter what other people say about our appearance as well as being true to ourselves)

This all started off when I was going through social media, particularly with Instagram and while as I was scrolling though on there I noticed something that made me become conscious with my body and that was seeing other models that we normally would see on social media and seeing Instagram models is one of them. Witnessing those girls on Instagram made me have low self esteem on myself and they’re clearly showing off the ideal body figures, from enhancing their features with plastic surgery to creating the ideal relationship with another model being accompanied with in order to create an illusion of the perfect life ?.

What made this situation even more worse for me is seeing those skinny women who posing with attractive men trying to sell a fantasy to the general public and that alone made me from having mild self esteem to gaining low self esteem and I ended up having a negative experience on accepting myself for who I am and loving myself for who I am ? as well as trying to step outside my comfort zone with my fashion sense and ended up being body conscious about my own image.

However social media is not always a negative thing for me, in fact it could be really positive as well. One day I went on Facebook and I witnessed Ashley Graham giving a speech towards young girls on her own life story and how she made it through as a plus size model and her speech alone make me feel accepted for who I am and it’s not just her alone that helped me realise that I need to love myself as all the other people that I found all the social media including Nabela Noor, WhatLauraLoves and fullerfigurefullerbust. After seeing those women on social media and seeing the confidence that they got have given me the inspiration to be myself again and they also inspired me to make me feel good and that I don’t need to change myself in order to fit into the “ideal body figure” nor moulding into society when I can learn to stand out in front of the crowd.

Embracing my uniqueness in front of the mirror ?.

Here are the links for the inspirational people who have inspired me to be myself at all times:

https://www.instagram.com/ashleygraham/?hl=en

https://www.youtube.com/user/NabelaNoor

https://www.whatlauralovesuk.com/

https://fullerfigurefullerbust.com/

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My personal rollercoaster

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog is going to be my personal things that I’ve been wanted to give out for a very long time and today is the day that I tell you everything about my personal rollercoaster and how my dad made my life a little worse for me to handle in the first place so grab a snack ? or a drink ?and get comfortable ?,because this blog post will be interesting for you to have a read ?.

(DISCLAIMER: This is only on my perspective and how it happened along with my own personal issues and my experiences based on what happened during my time claiming benefits and what my dad said to me. He does have a good heart but sometimes his mouth lets him down as well as being blindsided that my opinion doesn’t mean anything to him but he considers his own opinion to be better than mine which by the way it’s not true and it is due to the fact that he is too stubborn to admit that he is wrong in some occasions)

Going back to the previous blog posts that I mentioned from both other work experiences and other work experiences continued blog posts, within the time that I was on jobseekers allowance (JSA) I went through a really rough patch there which was not mentioned on this blog posts and I literally spent hours, weeks, months and even years on applying for jobs. Along with looking for them at the same time along with the fact that I’ve mentioned from my previous blog post that I had to write down the job titles that I’ve applied for and majority of those companies don’t even have the courtesy to get back to me which disheartens me and it angers up the people who work there. All because of the fact that I can trust the companies to get back to me and hoping that they would get back to me, but they didn’t bother to do so ? and some of them do reply back saying that I didn’t get the job.

Also during my time being on benefits and all that time, I felt extremely depressed and I felt like well this may sound a bit harsh to you, but for me it that like I was trapped and being held within their system until I got a job. For a very long time I ended up being emotionally drained and exhausted by doing what the job centre had told me to do. After finally coming out of benefits by securing a job working with a fabulous company and going on a traineeship that made me feel left out and unappreciated. Along with my mum my brother and be involved in a car accident as well as my brother being diagnosed with brain tumours (check out the “My traineeship from hell ?” blog post and “My brothers diagnosis ?” blog post too)

A few years later on our way back from kickboxing training, my dad decided to tell me that I need to go back to claiming benefits and I already informed him that it is not a nice place to go back and start claiming benefits even though I’ve been though that system for 3 to 4 years and even had my work experience at the job centre, but my own father refused to listen to me about the bad side of what I’ve been through and he still kept talking to me and still refuses to listen to me. Despite the fact on what I’ve been through from them as well as having the knowledge on how the system works.

Even though I told him that I was not going to claim benefits he still managed to find a way by telling my mum that I need to go back to claiming benefits and this is when I started to breathe heavily every time they mentioned it and it’s also when I started to have panic attacks. Eventually it became too much for me to handle so getting lightheaded and potentially collapsed on the kitchen floor while I was cooking and when my mum found me collapsed she gasped and tried to wake me up by saying my name but I managed to wake up and I started crying to my mum along with me informing her that I don’t want to go back and she hugged me while I was on my knees with sadness and depression being the main suspects of my depression and stress.

Despite the negative things that my dad did to me, he did a lot of good things for me including giving me lifts on where I needed to go for certain places such as competitions and he even helped me pass my driving test. After all he is my driving instructor and he sometimes comes up with funny jokes and even funny experiences that happened during his life or career in general.

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My love life ?

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog I decided to bring a little lovey-dovey moment into my blog due to Valentine’s Day arriving soon, so I thought I’d mention a little bit of my bachelorette life as well as taking you through the journey on loving myself for who I am and how I became confident of myself so grab a snack ? or a drink ? and get comfortable ?, because this blog post is going to be the one to remember ❤️.

(DISCLAIMER: This is only my personal side on my love life along with my personal struggles on accepting myself and loving myself for who I am.)

Before I start telling you about my love life I thought I’d give you a little bit of a story on what caused me to become image-conscious of myself before moving on towards my love life and how it impacted me on finding the one.

I started to struggle on understanding myself for who I am by witnessing some girls from secondary school being skinny and some of them were even relationships as well (talk about growing up too fast) but that’s not the reason why I had a hard time on loving myself for who I am. In fact it was well… because of both boys and girls at secondary school (well at least some of them) have been calling me names based on my appearance. They said that I was too fat when clearly someone else is bigger than me along with the fact that I looked like a man in disguise due to my hairy arms and legs ? (I mentioned about this on my teen life and my continued teen life blog posts so feel free to go and check them out.)

Despite the negativity that I’ve received from the skinny girls and the name calling boys who don’t have anything better to do, there are some good people in school who do appreciate me for who I am and liked me for my bubbly personality along with my sense of humour, even though some of the jokes I made are not funny as they would be, they still look at me in a positive perspective and not in a negative perspective of myself as a human being.

“Love yourself first and everything falls into line.”

Lucille Ball

A few years later, one guy came up to me and was really interested on going out with me and I immediately said yes without hesitation. However another part of me wanted to say no after I rejected a number of guys asking me out all because of the fact that I wasn’t ready to commit into a relationship first until I completely loved myself and when I do reject them, they tend to look at me as if I was acting like a baby, but the real truth is that I was overthinking on how they would react if I told them I had autism after being told by number of people saying I don’t look autistic to them (check out the my life, childhood, tween and teen life being autistic blog posts). I realised what I have done I’ve decided to end it right there and then with him and that’s also when he decided to say that I was acting like a baby behind my back.

“Self love. It doesn’t mean that everyone will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. It means that you won’t let them change the way you see yourself; nor will you stick around for them to destroy you.”

Tony A. Gaskins JR

After distancing myself away from that gentleman and realising that he is seeing someone else, I realised I needed a wake up call to remind myself that I don’t need to be with somebody to complete me and that person is going to be me and if I can embrace myself without having a boyfriend/partner, you can do it as well and why you might ask? Because at the end of the day life is too short on trying to please people when we all should be able to please ourselves first and I wish you all a very Happy Valentine’s Day ❤️ or Galentine’s Day ?/Palentine’s Day ?? if you are single like myself ☺️.

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My continued inspiration to do kickboxing

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog, today’s blog is going to be on my continued inspiration on doing kickboxing and the people that guided me to get involved with martial arts in the first place along with the process being carried out in my very own words, so grab a snack ?/drink ☕️ and get comfortable ?, because this blog post will be inspiring for you to do. ?

(DISCLAIMER: This is not a sponsored blog post. This blog post is truly based on the second part on how I got into martial arts in the first place and the people who motivated me altogether.)

After I finished off the trial session, me and my mum went back home and we discussed about doing kickboxing as a hobby, we talked about it for a while and on that day, I decided to go for it. My very first session was on 16th October 2002 and I was feeling nervous about starting my training at the kickboxing club. I was even given a uniform in order to start the session with the other students.

As I got into the session, the instructor gathers everyone on the dojo matts, lining them up from one end to the other end and I was in the middle slightly to the left side of the room where all the beginners are training at the same time. They started the session by getting their position, which was raising their arms up and their fists clinched ready to bow in order to start the training session by moving our heads up and down and continued with the warm up from the top of the body until we get to the body.

During the training session that they tell you on what you are going to learn for the session, sometimes it can be from grading techniques to sparring or it can even be a circuit session, for those who don’t know on what a circuit is: it’s basically you go on either a gym equipment being provided and do the workout that was given by the instructor or you go on the punching bag and practice some techniques and combinations on the bag for 1-2 mins, afterwards we then go and change places until we went back to where we started from the circuit training.

We have to do the moves and the techniques that were within the session and continued with it until we finished it with some stretching, but with less stretches that will ease off the hardworking training session. Throughout my kickboxing journey, I’ve met so many amazing people that helped me and guided throughout the process, from teaching me the basics to becoming a good referee as well as becoming a respective individual and guiding others to do the same thing too and all of this came down to one person who was there for me ever since I started training and he saw a potential in me and believed that I can achieve my goals and guided me on what needs to be done and this person is Sensei Dev Barretts.

“Nothing is impossible. Even the word itself says I’m possible”

Jackie Chan

For all the years that Sensei Dev has taught for me and to all of his students that have been training with him or used to be trained by Sensei Dev from his kickboxing club and he has changed so many lives inside and outside of the kickboxing club, he inspired us all to keep the motivation alive and gave us the strength that we needed in order to keep the passion, the fitness regime and the determination alive in order for all of us as a community to stay strong and keep thriving for success and for all of his hard work, I want to thank you Sensei Dev for being there for me and continuing to inspire others to achieve their goals too.

Thank you Sensei Dev OSS ???

If you want to find out further more information about joining an ECKA club or to find out on what the instructors have been doing, go to www.ecka.co.uk and on there you can find out everything on what they do and you can even find an instructor in your area (depending on the location of the area where you live) and you can even find out the latest events and updates as well as finding out your kickboxing group within your area.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read on my continued inspirational journey on doing kickboxing, I’m so sorry about the blog being too long. Stay tuned for the next post and tell me if you were to take on any sport or a hobby to do in life that you always wanted to do what would it be and why? Leave a comment below I would love to read what they are oh and don’t forget to spread the word out about my blog as well. ???

My beginning inspiration to do kickboxing

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog is going to be on my early inspiration on doing kickboxing and the people who inspired me to get involved with martial arts in the first place along with beginning part of the process so grab a snack ?/ drink ?and get comfortable ?, because this blog post will get you motivated to do more.

I started doing kickboxing when I was 11 yrs old and you’re probably wondering what inspired me to do kickboxing and my passion for martial arts in the first place? Well I was at home watching martial artists like Bruce Lee, Jackie Chan and Sammo Hung on TV (I know I shouldn’t be watching TV, but that’s what I did growing up ?) while I was watching them doing martial arts on the screen, I was amazed on what they can do along with the talent and the inspiration behind them is so remarkable that inspired me to do martial arts in the first place ?. Along with watching people doing martial arts on TV, there was also a kickboxing club that was right across the street where I lived as well.

I said to my mum “why don’t I try doing kickboxing?” My mum responded back by saying “ok, but where are you gong to do it at?” My reply back to her was “There’s a kickboxing club right across the street where we live from us.” At that point, my mum and I agreed to go for a trial session on doing kickboxing after watching a session on them from the previous day and was being able to speak to the instructor on getting to know me and my mum as well on what got me inspired to do it from the beginning, my mum also told him that I have mild autism. (Check out the my life being autistic blog)

“Absorb what is useful, discard what is not, add what is uniquely your own.”

Bruce Lee

I came in the next day later with my mum and went on for the trial session at the kickboxing club and they start it off by doing some stretching on the dojo matts, it starts from the top and working our way down to the bottom of the feet, they made us do some leg swings from the back leg with the right leg first and then switch your stunts round and repeating the same thing again with the other leg and then the main instructor comes in and checks in with us to see how we got along and tells us to remove our jewellery off and of course little fashionista me, I was literally taking all my jewellery off and there was so much of it that my mum had to put out both her hands out and collect the jewellery on there and the instructor said to me “What’s your name?” I replied back “Arveena” he even replied back by saying “I’ve never seen anyone wear so much jewellery in my life.”

After taking off the jewellery, we went back on the dojo matts and continued with the trial session by doing some basic techniques and going through the combinations that we learnt earlier within the session like the snap punch, reverse punch, front kick and the roundhouse kick. We went through the techniques by going up to 10 and again switching stunts as well as repeating it again on the other side and made us do some sparring using the techniques that we learned from previously onwards within the session. After completing the workout session, we finished it off with some simple stretches, wrist movements and finished off the session by bowing to the main instructor.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read on my beginning inspirational journey on doing kickboxing, I’m so sorry about the blog being too long and stay tuned for the next post which will be coming up soon and don’t forget to leave a comment below on my blog and spread the word out about it too. ???

My experience at the Ansty social club

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog will be on my time at the brain tumour support Christmas meal ?at the Ansty social club and what me and my family have been doing at the Ansty social club along with what we ate there and the outcome of it as well, so grab a snack ?/ drink?and get comfortable ?, because this one is going to be a fun one to read.

DISCLAIMER: This is NOT a sponsored blog post. Everything on this blog post is 100% has been purchased by me and my brother. 

We were so excited on that day to go for the Christmas meal before the new year arrived. My brother gave the order on what we wanted for the Christmas meal. On that day, all of us were told to wear something Christmasy including jumpers as you can see on this pic below.

On the left is my brother Arvin, our mum in the middle and myself on the right.

On the other pic below is the complete outfit that I wore for the Christmas meal from head to toe. (Sorry I couldn’t find another tall mirror as this is the only mirror that I can find and it’s only in my dads room as well as the bad picture quality too.) I got the boots and the skinny jeans are from yours clothing and their jeans and boots are absolutely amazing and it made me look taller than I anticipated. The Christmas jumper however I got it from peacocks and this Christmas jumper is so soft and comfortable to wear along with a cute design which is sewn in with sequins and are designed it self looks so adorable too ☺️. I also wore my NYX metallic liquid lipstick in biker babe and this shade is so beautiful and it gives a festive vibe to the look too.

My entire outfit ? (Sorry for the bad lighting)

Me, my mum and my brother arrived at the social club and the setting of the club looks so amazing and very low-key at the same time too. There were some Christmas music being played there and there was also a slideshow based on the photos that were taken for the brain tumour support and we did in Coventry throughout the year. What’s that up with the drinks there and there were a very limited variety of drinks to have and all of us have gone for water rather than red and white wine that was provided for us on the tables as well as the bar being available for drinks too.

The Devon crab cake ?

I’m going to start with the starter and my starter was the Devon crab cake and the presentation looks amazing and the taste of the crab cake is astonishing and lovely too ?. My mum and and brother had the parsnip soup as a starter and they both loved it as a vegetarian/vegan starter to have.

Turkey, stuffing and all the trimmings displayed ☺️

Then we had the main course and my main course was the turkey with stuffing and all the trimmings available for me to have and honest with the turkey is amazing and the stuffing was tasty to have and the vegetables were awesome. My mum and brother had the chickpea and sweet potato curry with wild rice and there were some mixed feelings with the vegetarian/vegan main course. My brother liked it, however my mum thought it was too tomatoey and needed more flavour into it, but apart from that they enjoyed it ☺️.

A slice of indulgence from the soft chocolate cake?

The dessert I had was the soft chocolate cake with light espresso sauce and that dessert itself is so divine that taking every bite is worth every moment you take a bite out of it ?. Even the presentation itself looks so exquisite and elegant as well. Sadly my mum and brother didn’t have the desert there because they decided not to have any but my mum did share some of my desert instead and she liked it too.

My overall experience with the brain tumour support Christmas meal at the Ansty social club has been exquisite and fun at the same time. I almost forgot there was also a raffle for us to enter, unfortunately neither my brother or I didn’t win anything but the biggest prize that we both gained is donating the money to charity and that is the biggest present that we got ever. ???

Here is the website for the social club below:

Ansty Social Club

Thank you so much for taking your time to read my blog. I’m so sorry for the blog post being so long and leave me a comment below and please stay tuned for the next post and don’t forget to spread the word out about my blog too. ??? and I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a happy new year!!! ??????

Esquires coffee time

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog is going to be a review on a café that I went to called Esquires Coffee and also meeting Coventry bloggers for the first time so grab a snack ? or a drink ☕️ and get comfortable ?, because this blog post is going to be something interesting for you to look at.

I also wanted to mention that they are an award winning community coffee shop and they have branches across the UK as well as the Coventry branch are celebrating their 10th birthday at the Coventry Transport Museum.

Steven Prime became the owner of the café at the age of 23 and has served the Coventry community for 10 years. He was named the HSBC Midlands and North Wales franchisee of the year 2012 and BFA HSBC UK Young franchisee of the year 2013 ??????.

The entrance of the café was truly amazing and it’s extremely cosy, warm and inviting along with the images being based on the history of Coventry including the rover article and vintage imagery being displayed on the walls if you walk further towards the other part of the café.

While at the cafe, I ordered the honeycomb cheesecake and the snowball hot chocolate, which they are shown in the picture below.

On the left is the snowball hot chocolate and the honeycomb cheesecake is on the right)
The honeycomb cheesecake on its own ?

So I’m gonna start with the honeycomb cheesecake and the cheesecake I’ve tried is absolutely gorgeous on both presentation and in flavour as well as being so creamy in texture too ?. The honeycomb itself gives it that extra crunch.

A mug of heavenly goodness from the snowball hot chocolate ?

After finishing off the cheesecake, it was time to try out the snowball hot chocolate and the hot chocolate tastes amazing and creamy but whatever you do, don’t leave the wafer biscuit in there too long otherwise it will sink to the bottom and that’s exactly what I did ?.

I literally left the wafer biscuit in the hot drink too long and it just fell apart and ended up in the drink, but apart from that the hot chocolate itself was beautifully executed by the barista.

The prices on both the cheesecake and the hot drink are affordable depending on what you’re ordering from the menu. My overall experience from the café has been truly amazing and I urge you right now to go over there and grab yourself a coffee and the best thing about it is that it’s actually next to the Coventry transport museum and you will love the history behind it.

Here is the link below for the actual cafe: 

https://esquirescoffee.co.uk


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My meditation journey

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog at today’s blog will be on my meditation journey what I see throughout my visual experience from meditation as well as having my imagination going wild so grab a snack ? or drink ?and get comfortable ?, because this blog post will be interesting for you to read.

(Disclaimer: This is not a sponsored blog post. This is just my personal outcome on what I generally see from my meditation. It doesn’t mean that I know anything about meditation visions and all I did was I researched on Google to find out what they actually mean, so please do your research on what you see on your meditation/dreams at all costs.)

When I first started meditating from the advice that I received from Jay Shetty from his live your purpose programme on Facebook, I was a bit suspicious at first because I was clueless on what I got myself into but excited as well for trying something new out of the blue so I opened the headspace app and started to do the basics and watched a clip on how meditation works. The animation of the video itself is so cute and informative to describe the feeling of meditation.

I did the basics on day 1 and what I saw in my meditation was a bit strange at first but also interesting at the same time, in fact in my first meditation session that I have done in the morning was the middle part of a tree and I was amazed on what I saw within only just 10 mins. As I continued on doing meditation for 10 mins, my imagination has started to form up altogether and eventually started to form a tree and also hasn’t mentioned earlier on that I also see Buddha on my side and I know it sounds a little weird to you but the reason why but I keep it to a meditation because I used to play peek a boo with Buddha with the curtain, which explains the vision of Buddha in my meditation.

After seeing Buddha in my meditation, I also have seen some figures that occurred to me within my mind including a tiger cuddling up with me ( I know it sounds strange but it’s cute and interesting at the same time ???), well to tell the truth I originally thought that the tiger was going to attack me at first, but soon came to it senses and started to sit on my laps and wants me to stroke the tiger instead pretty much like a household cat would do and I also seen two swans forming a heart ❤️ and I was a little bit suspicious at first because I didn’t know what it means when the swans form a heart together until I went on Google to research are the meaning of two swans forming a heart and it turns out that it symbolises love, beauty, elegance and gracefulness along with sensitivity as well.

I then later on saw a peacock opening up its feathers though and making the noise but peacocks usually make and in fact that it drove me so mad within my mind that it playing for a couple of hours and I even cried about it as well, due to the peacock noises kept getting louder and louder and louder within my mind and it eventually started to calm down and began to fade away slowly but surely it disappeared and the next time I meditated again I began seeing two blue peacocks forming a heart together and again as usual I went on Google to research what it means when it comes to 2 blue peacocks forming a heart. Unfortunately I didn’t have much luck well it came to doing the research on finding what the two peacocks forming a heart means, however I did find some research on the meaning of the peacock and it symbolises spirituality, vision, awakening, guidance, protection and watchfulness.

Also within my meditation visions I also end up seeing a couple of words that spring to my mind and those words that you came in handy for me if I really needed a constant reminder and those words are “motivate”, “inspire others”, “mentor” and “coach”. Which must’ve somehow indicated to me that I needed to go back to mentoring/coaching which is also my ambition to do in life.

Thank you so much for taking your time to read my blog. I’m so sorry for the blog post being so long and leave a comment below and tell me if you do meditate, tell me what do you see in your meditation. Please stay tuned for the next post and don’t forget to spread the word out about my blog too. ???

Useful websites to look at

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog is going to be a little bit different than usual. Instead of me explaining to you about what happened in my life though, this time will be based on the links for those who are autistic like myself as well as finding other information about the sites from not just in the UK but also available in some countries as well so if you wanna have a look at these websites which will help you in the long run and you can actually forward it over to other people who are going to exact same thing as well so please feel free to go and check them out for yourself and this is just based on my personal research on the websites that I found online.

(DISCLAIMER: This is not a sponsored blog post. This blog post is based on the research that I have found on Google that I considered to be the best websites and I  encourage you to do some research of your own.) 

Autism awareness websites for you to go and check it out:

https://www.autism.org.uk

https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/outside-uk/round-world.aspx

https://www.autismspeaks.org

https://www.autistica.org.uk

http://nationalautismassociation.org

https://thegirlwiththecurlyhair.co.uk

https://junipercare.co.uk/

https://www.harryschocs.co.uk (this site is for those who have a sweet tooth and if you continue scrawling on the site there is a slight description on the website that will make you love them even more)

Thank you so much for taking the time to have a look at our brief blog post of on my blog and I’m really sorry this is not as normal a blog post that you normally see on my blog and I will be coming up with new blog post so feel free to leave a comment below if you know any autistic related websites that can be useful for anyone to use as well and don’t forget to spread the word out as well ???.

My further experience with LGFB

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog will be featuring my personal experience that I currently volunteer for Look Good Feel Better along with experience on how I recognise a few people that came into the workshop and my personal emotions that I went through as well from the experience of volunteering for amazing organisation, so grab a snack ?or drink ? and get comfortable ? because this blog post is going to be interesting for you to read ?.

During my voluntary experience with LGFB, I’ve seen so many ladies come and go and I don’t usually come across anyone that I know nor have been familiar with until one day, I’d came across one person that I recognised them by face, but not by their name and when I met one of the ladies, I immediately recognised her for the first time in years and after seeing her go through cancer herself, I wanted to leave the room and stay focused on bringing on other ladies who are having a hard time finding a place to park and we are currently running late to the session and you’re probably wondering who is it that you manage to recognise from the group on that day.

The person who came into the workshop that I managed to recognise was in fact an old work colleague of mine where I used to work in a primary school from 7 to 8 years ago and she immediately recognised me from the workshop that I was volunteering with. As we were getting on with the workshop we all seem to work well though and helped everybody out there who needed the help most and we would generally have a conversation though on what we been up to and I told exactly what I was told her everything what been up to and she told me the same thing and my last words I said to her was to stay strong and keep fighting no matter how long it takes and what it takes you still going to remain strong and fight through this.

When I got home from the session that I’ve met an old work colleague of mine I told my mum exactly what happened and I immediately burst into tears and I felt really bad and upset because of what she was currently going through cancer right there and then ?. From that point on, I realised that I needed to remain mentally strong for anyone else who is currently going through cancer and battling through the disease as well. Another time of events that happened to me when I met someone who is also been diagnosed with cancer was an old teaching assistant who used to work at a secondary school and I had a good bond with her when I was a teenager and yes the emotions were repeated again after not only seeing her for a while but also seeing her battle through cancer as well.

However on my second attempt on seeing someone who I know for years I remained strong minded, motivated and kept focusing ahead on the task at hand and amazingly it paid off along with the fact I get to show them that are shown in front of the ladies that they can purchase from certain websites and telling them that 10% of the proceeds go towards Look Good Feel Better along with me explaining to them that the brushes are supersoft the cruelty free and the perfect for anybody who’s got super sensitive skin while the going through treatment or for anybody in general has sensitive skin. After I finished of the session I told my mum exactly what happened that’s an old teaching assistant of mine came to the workshop and I told her everything what happened and again the same reaction was I broke down in tears and my mum reminded me not to get too attached to them and I told her I wasn’t getting attached to them and it was in fact a state of shock after seeing one of the nicest teaching assistants who has helped me with my school work in years was then coming into the workshop and the roles have been reversed.

Despite my experience on my feelings and seeing people who I know in general and going on an emotional rollercoaster everything turned out for the better as I grew as a person and feeling motivated but physically and emotionally in order for me to get myself forward in life ? along with the fact that this experience altogether can possibly inspire anybody else who is going to the exact same feeling when they also know somebody who has been diagnosed with cancer/tumour and yes it can be hard at first but once you take a deep breath and stay mentally strong for yourself and for other people who are around you you will do absolutely amazingly with the process and a condolence to you and for anyone who recently lost a loved one due to cancer/tumour ?.

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