My Brothers Diagnosis ?

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog will be based on the tragic moments I have been through since leaving the Capita traineeship programme as was looking after my mum for a short period of time and what was the conclusion about my brother afterwards what he suffered from the past few months so grab a snack ? or a drink ?, get comfortable ? oh and a box of tissues, because this blog post is going to be an emotional rollercoaster of a lifetime.

After finishing the traineeship from hell and finding out about my mum’s major injuries, I decided to look after my mum on a road to recovery and is still recovering on the injuries from the car accident ?. Things went from bad to worse in 4 months later, my brother had an appointment from the hospital and the appointment was scheduled to be nearly October time however they rang up earlier I need to say to rearrange it to 3 days early so I went for the appointment and as soon as they came back I asked my brother how it went with the appointment and I got nothing from him and when I asked my mum what happened within the appointment she told me that “they found a tumour in his brain” and I immediately started crying over the devastating news that I received ???.

What made it even worse was that it wasn’t one or two brain tumours that they found when he was going through his MRI scan, they managed to find 6 brain tumours and I was shocked on the fact that they’ve found 6 brain tumours and my thought that I had was playing in my mind, repeatedly over and over again like a record player saying to myself “Is my brother going to be alright and is he going to make it?” having a hard time taking in the tragic news that I received from my mum.

After finding out the shocking news about my brother’s brain tumours and looking after my mum on her injuries, it was time for them to go forward with the next part of the procedure in order to remove the brain tumours and that is to go and see a cancer/tumour specialist who deals with them on a daily basis on how to get rid of them the doctor has recommended my brother to go onto radiotherapy and he also said that he was going to make it. He was also given the schedule and what dates and times that he has to attend for his radiotherapy at the Centre in Coventry UK and it was pretty much every day except for weekends and Christmas Holidays.

While he is battling his brain tumour, one day my brother was going up the stairs and he managed to reach up to the top of the stairs and afterwards he fell down the stairs from the top and could have possibly have himself on the head, touchwood he didn’t actually get hurt so myself, my mum and dad came running as fast as we can to reach him there to see if he was okay and we managed to to get him back up on his feet and he was sitting on the stairs catching his breath and making sure he’s alright to go back upstairs. It was a wake-up call for us to realise that we need to keep an eye on him 24/7 every day no matter how long it takes for him to make sure he is alright.

As days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months he went through a tough battle with the tumours and he still remained strong and determined to conquer the obstacle in front of him in which some of the days that he goes for his treatment, he has to have a blood test done as well in order to see if the treatment is working well for him and we were seeing some positive results from the treatment that he was receiving from the Arden Centre. But the downside to him having his treatment done was that it also affected his organs from the treatment as well as medication he was having to take too.

After finishing off his treatment at the Arden Centre, we all went home and did his routine out of doing his medication and all of his medication has been continuous until we have some results. A few days after my birthday, we received a phone call from the doctors and the good news on that occasion was he’s got the all clear finally some good news that he has survived the brain tumours and all of us were praising for that for that brilliant news that we’ve just received we all had a group hug afterwards though to say that he’s got the all clear and he finally conquered the illness that was holding him back.

It’s on and on the first day without the tablets he was feeling great however as the days went by he started to get weaker than ever before in fact it was so bad that he couldn’t even get out of bed my mum had to call a need to figure out what to do, she was in tears trying to figure out what to do and I told him to bring him over to ana by car because if they ask for the ambulance it would take up to 2 hours, so we managed to bring him over to ana by car and along with his visit to A&E on the hospital bed and his temperature started to rise up to 200°c and he has been in the hospital for 10 days and some of those days he couldn’t remember the people who were there for him including our mum and she was heartbroken and devastated that he could remember her at all so she pretended to be his special nurse for him and to look after him and slowly bit by bit he started to regain his memory back and and also is started to be back on the mend and when I visited my brother asking him what he wanted from the shop and out of the blue said “Whispa gold”.

When my mum came back to check on him, I told her what he said to me and I mentioned it to her that he replied back to me out of the blue, he said he wanted Whispa gold and I didn’t put any words into his mouth or make him say that, he just said it by himself without any help at all and from that point we realised he’s getting his memory back. He managed to remember mum in 8 days when she came in one day wearing a red top as she usually wears when going out to places. For 10 days she slept on the chair with a fractured spine.

This blog post is a dedication to my brother Arvin Kaushal who went through this diagnosis hard and fought strong to survive as well as dedicating it to the brain tumour support UK who have been very helpful for my brother as well as my family and made him feel like that he is part of the group and I’m very grateful for that. I’m also making a special dedication to all the brain tumour/ cancer patients who are fighting through the diagnosis as well as their family and friends who are currently supporting them 100% and the survivors who survived the condition and commiserations for those who lost their loved ones from the disease too. If you would like to know further formation about Brain tumour support UK or any of the brain tumour support charities internationally the links are down below:

Don’t forget to check my brother’s blog out to see his side of life:

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My traineeship from hell ?

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog as you can see the name of the new blog post and it’s called my traineeship from hell ? and it does sound a bit harsh but this is from my experience of what happened since I left FWT along with the interviews that I went through from companies and even went onto a traineeship programme from Capita and I’ll be giving you my pure honest opinion about the traineeship on I went through so before you start reading this blog post I want you to read the disclaimer first before you start reading the blog post so grab a snack ?, get really comfortable ?, because this blog post is going to be a really long and interesting post ☕️?☕️?.

(DISCLAIMER: Please note that this is just my honest opinion on the experience that I had with Capita, what I went throughout the traineeship programme and my personal feelings about the traineeship, not the company altogether. I will do the best I can to keep it balanced on both positive and negative aspects on my experience but the majority of this blog post contains some harsh criticism on the experience that I went through on the interviews and the traineeship that I went to as well and I apologise to you if you find any of my opinions too hard to swallow.)

After leaving FWT and going for interviews from companies that don’t want me to work for them, due to my autism being a barrier for them instead of a benefit (their loss, my gain ?), it was time for me to move on with my life and I decided to go on a traineeship with Capita ?. But before I explain to you about what happened during the traineeship with Capita, I wanted to tell you about the interviews that I went through from the vacancies that I applied for during my time with FWT, which I forgot to mention it on my previous blog post (sorry for not mentioning it on my previous blog post ?) two of those companies that I went for an interview with are both based in Birmingham and both of those vacancies are based on customer service and both of them require me to do evening time as well.

From that point I wasn’t so sure if it was the right job for me, because I still need to make some time for my social life as well so I can have a balanced life with both work and social along with the terms and conditions of those vacancies in Birmingham and I didn’t get any of the two vacancies ?. After failing the two interviews I went to I went towards an agency that deals with admin, customer service etc and I got myself an appointment with the agency so they can test me up there with my English and Maths and my English results was okay but my Maths was a little so so, but luckily for me, I already got the qualifications in English and Maths that meet up to their standards.

I also mentioned to them that I have autism as well as informing them that it’s very mild too and I was told by them not to mention about it to the interviewer. After coming out of the appointment, I thought to myself “why can’t I mention to the interviewer about my mild autism? I mean they have a right to know about it along with the fact that any disability or difficulty that an individual has, it must be taken seriously, no matter what it is nor how it affects me on a daily basis.”

After I had the meeting with them and going through the tests, the recruitment consultant showed me some of the vacancies through email and I applied to one of the vacancies from the email that was sent to me and in a couple of days later I got a call from the agency and they told me that I got an interview with one of the companies for an apprenticeship. I went to interview with a massive bag, because after the interview I went straight over to work before I leave and the manager for the company I had the interview with was pretty much a nice guy but at the same time he’s a bit sceptical especially with some of the questions that that I answered didn’t come out right for him along with the fact that I told him about my mild autism he didn’t see it though as a benefit instead he looked at it as more of a barrier for him. Obviously I didn’t get the apprenticeship from the company and I was disheartened not because I didn’t get the apprenticeship. I was disheartened by the fact that he didn’t see my autism as a benefit for him which is discriminating me as the autistic woman.

After failing to get their apprenticeship from the company that discriminates autistic people, I then went on to a traineeship from Capita and when I first got into the traineeship course, The trainer was barely there and we had to wait for a really long time to wait for him to arrive and will kept waiting and waiting until eventually he wasn’t going to turn up so I decided to ditch it. The next day we arrived at the traineeship place and finally the trainer had arrived to the building. The traineeship started of bad when it comes to getting out the smart phones out and I was very impatient and getting frustrated at that time for waiting a website to load and eventually I wanted to take a breather and walk away from it obviously from his standards and the ICE building standards it wasn’t acceptable to do that but although there were some bumps on the road but I still managed to get along well with some people who were in the traineeship.

However during my 5 weeks with the traineeship programme, there have been more negative than positive and I will do the best I can to balance them out between the two and one of them was on the favouritism between myself and a few girls in there. Especially with one person who was given the special treatment from the trainer of the programme majority of the time and doing the work that the trainer was doing so she could become a trainer herself at Capita instead of working in another company that are deals with customer service and the actual company is called Transport For London (TFL and talk about an ultimate teachers pet ?) which is connected to the Capita company, myself and the other students went on a tour around the building on how the company works.

While I was doing my experience on the traineeship with Capita, I have to do some of the work at home until some time in the afternoon my dad came home and told me that my mum is at the hospital and also informed me that my mum and brother got into an car accident and when I heard the tragic news, my heart just dropped down and I was even in tears, but at the same time I was worried about them “Are they alright?” “How bad are they hurt?” When I arrived at A&E of the hospital, my brother was already there waiting to see what happens next and I tried to give him a hug, he pushed me away from him and didn’t even want to acknowledge my sympathy for him and was even beating himself up mentally for what he had done to himself and mum as well as my uncle being there as well to comfort me.

My brother suffered from a swollen heel. However my mum got most of the damage in which she got a fractured spine and has two slightly fractured fingers on her right hand along with a swollen shoulder. When I got home from my visit to the hospital and my aunt decided to ring telling her about what happened and the soon as I told her about the accident she got in the car took the girls with her and got everything sorted out as she drove herself all the way from Slough to Coventry just to see me and everyone else who has been affected from the incident. The next day I’ve picked up the phone and decided to call the trainer up and explained what happened and he too was actually shocked about what happened to my mum and when I returned back into the classroom, the trainer asked me if my mum was alright and I informed him on the condition of my mum and my response to that question towards him was that “she suffered from a fractured spine and two swollen fingers, but apart from the two major injuries she has, she’s alive and well.”

I knew my mum was a tough cookie and I also knew that she was going to be alright and I explained to him that “she’s a tough cookie and she’s going to be alright” I was remaining positive from the tragic incident that happened to my mum, but the trainer response was “she’s not going to be alright, she’s at the hospital” and when the other girl who was present in the classroom (aka teachers pet ?) heard about what happened to my mum, she started questioning it too and asked me two questions and one of them was “what happened to your mum?” and I explained to her about what happened and then she asked me “who was driving at the time of the incident?” My reply was “My brother” and her response was “you’ve got bad parents” my response back to her was “well at least my parents are still together” as for her step sister by the way was a complete spoiled brat had an argument with a step sister and I tried to tell her to get on with her work and she decided to walk away from the classroom after telling her off about focusing on her work and not arguing with her step sister.

She even came up with an excuse on the fact that she wasn’t arguing with her sister and she was discussing loudly with her instead ?. Apart from all the negative experience that I had to go through along with capita traineeship and the car accident that happened to my mum and brother, I’ve learnt a lot when I was on the traineeship and even made some good friends and memories to remember as well as learning what the company has to offer from TFL and I’ve learned about the expanded version on customer service and how it works in the first place along with some advise on becoming a mentor/coach and the the support I needed in order to move forward too. As for my mum and brother, well you have to wait until the next blog post to find out what happens next.

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