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Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog I decided to bring a little lovey-dovey moment into my blog due to Valentine’s Day arriving soon, so I thought I’d mention a little bit of my bachelorette life as well as taking you through the journey on loving myself for who I am and how I became confident of myself so grab a snack ? or a drink ? and get comfortable ?, because this blog post is going to be the one to remember ❤️.

(DISCLAIMER: This is only my personal side on my love life along with my personal struggles on accepting myself and loving myself for who I am.)

Before I start telling you about my love life I thought I’d give you a little bit of a story on what caused me to become image-conscious of myself before moving on towards my love life and how it impacted me on finding the one.

I started to struggle on understanding myself for who I am by witnessing some girls from secondary school being skinny and some of them were even relationships as well (talk about growing up too fast) but that’s not the reason why I had a hard time on loving myself for who I am. In fact it was well… because of both boys and girls at secondary school (well at least some of them) have been calling me names based on my appearance. They said that I was too fat when clearly someone else is bigger than me along with the fact that I looked like a man in disguise due to my hairy arms and legs ? (I mentioned about this on my teen life and my continued teen life blog posts so feel free to go and check them out.)

Despite the negativity that I’ve received from the skinny girls and the name calling boys who don’t have anything better to do, there are some good people in school who do appreciate me for who I am and liked me for my bubbly personality along with my sense of humour, even though some of the jokes I made are not funny as they would be, they still look at me in a positive perspective and not in a negative perspective of myself as a human being.

“Love yourself first and everything falls into line.”

Lucille Ball

A few years later, one guy came up to me and was really interested on going out with me and I immediately said yes without hesitation. However another part of me wanted to say no after I rejected a number of guys asking me out all because of the fact that I wasn’t ready to commit into a relationship first until I completely loved myself and when I do reject them, they tend to look at me as if I was acting like a baby, but the real truth is that I was overthinking on how they would react if I told them I had autism after being told by number of people saying I don’t look autistic to them (check out the my life, childhood, tween and teen life being autistic blog posts). I realised what I have done I’ve decided to end it right there and then with him and that’s also when he decided to say that I was acting like a baby behind my back.

“Self love. It doesn’t mean that everyone will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. It means that you won’t let them change the way you see yourself; nor will you stick around for them to destroy you.”

Tony A. Gaskins JR

After distancing myself away from that gentleman and realising that he is seeing someone else, I realised I needed a wake up call to remind myself that I don’t need to be with somebody to complete me and that person is going to be me and if I can embrace myself without having a boyfriend/partner, you can do it as well and why you might ask? Because at the end of the day life is too short on trying to please people when we all should be able to please ourselves first and I wish you all a very Happy Valentine’s Day ❤️ or Galentine’s Day ?/Palentine’s Day ?? if you are single like myself ☺️.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my love life and don’t forget to leave a comment below and tell me how do you embrace yourself for who you are and manage to love yourself too. ???

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog is going to be a little bit different than usual. Instead of me explaining to you about what happened in my life though, this time will be based on the links for those who are autistic like myself as well as finding other information about the sites from not just in the UK but also available in some countries as well so if you wanna have a look at these websites which will help you in the long run and you can actually forward it over to other people who are going to exact same thing as well so please feel free to go and check them out for yourself and this is just based on my personal research on the websites that I found online.

(DISCLAIMER: This is not a sponsored blog post. This blog post is based on the research that I have found on Google that I considered to be the best websites and I  encourage you to do some research of your own.) 

Autism awareness websites for you to go and check it out:

https://www.autism.org.uk

https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/outside-uk/round-world.aspx

https://www.autistica.org.uk

http://nationalautismassociation.org

https://thegirlwiththecurlyhair.co.uk

https://junipercare.co.uk/

https://www.harryschocs.co.uk (this site is for those who have a sweet tooth and if you continue scrawling on the site there is a slight description on the website that will make you love them even more)

Thank you so much for taking the time to have a look at our brief blog post of on my blog and I’m really sorry this is not as normal a blog post that you normally see on my blog and I will be coming up with new blog post so feel free to leave a comment below if you know any autistic related websites that can be useful for anyone to use as well and don’t forget to spread the word out as well ???.

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog post will be on my inspiration on becoming a make up artist. I will be going through the reasons on why I decided to become a make up artist in the first place along with the training that I went through in order to become a make up artist, so grab a snack ? or drink ?, get comfortable ? and enjoy reading this blog post.

(DISCLAIMER: This is not a sponsored blog post. The company themselves did not ask me to put in a good word for them and please note that this is how I actually became a make-up artist through Ellison’s. Just because I got the qualifications on how I became a make-up artist, it doesn’t mean that my method on becoming a make-up artist is the right method. In fact there is no right or wrong way in order to become a make-up artist. Anyone can become a make up artist, no matter if you’re self taught or going to a make up school/academy or even learning about it on a online course at home. As long as you keep your passion and your determination on becoming a make up artist alive and thriving ✊?)

After dealing with my brother’s condition (check the my brother’s diagnosis blog post ?) and looking after my mum and brother, it was time for me to start a new chapter in my life and that is to become a make up artist. My inspiration on becoming a make up artist is from two inspirations that came in front of me and one of them is by looking at the coloured eyeliners from the Urban Decay department at Debenhams Coventry and by looking at the coloured eyeliner pencils along with the other products being displayed in front of me and on that moment I realised I wanted to become a make-up artist.

Another inspiration on becoming one is by watching a Beauty Guru on YouTube and her name is Michelle Phan. Her personality is so humble as a person and she is so down to earth as a human being along with make up tutorials that she taught us on YouTube and the tips she gave out to the beauty community. In fact she was so successful, she has her own make up brand called EM cosmetics and has a book called make up: your life guide to beauty, style and success; online and off.

So I went online to Google and I did some research on how to become a make-up artist and one Beauty school came into my mind when I saw a website from Ellisons being advertised on Google, so I clicked on the link went on their website and I started to explore the courses that they provide along with the dates that they have it on other locations where it was held at. Then I decide to call them up and tell them to book me in for a introduction to professional make up course at Ellisons in Coventry and they told me that they haven’t got any spaces left but they have put my name down as an interest for the introduction to professional make up course until the next available date to arrive for the course.

A couple of days later, I received a phone call from the Beauty Academy to remind me of the introduction to professional make up course and asked me if I wanted to go for it and I said “yes and interested on going for it” and filled in the details over the phone. Then I received an email from the Academy confirming the date and time of the make up course and the location to where the make up training is going to be held at. When I arrived at the academy it was very modern at the reception area and the receptionist is friendly and approachable to me and right next to the reception area is a beauty shop where beauticians and other beauty practitioners can buy the equipment and products in order to help the beauty industry to bloom.

In April 2016, I started to do the introduction to professional make up course and I wasn’t the only one there. In fact there are five more other girls who also anticipated on doing the course as well and some of them were eager to do it and some of them were hesitant to do it but wanted to give it a try and see if it’s right for them to continue doing make up in the first place. As for me well let’s just say I have mixed emotions on doing it, because at the beginning of the session I was excited to do it, however during the session on learning the course I became hesitant about it, due to the amount of work that was provided to do within the session, but I didn’t give up on just that session alone.

While I was going through the make up course, there were some paperwork that needed to be completed during the one day course, which is the coursework along with the lecture helping us out if we were stuck on any of the questions or tasks that was needed to be done and once we have completed the work altogether, you will be given a certificate on completing the course at the academy along with a free make up brush set and that’s exactly happened to me; I completed the introduction to professional make up course and I felt pleased about it ?.

The next month later, I decided to go onto The next stage on becoming a make-up artist is moving to the special occasion make up course which is now called advanced professional make up course is just basically similar to the introduction to professional make up but they’ve expanded towards creating make up looks for bridal events and even fashion shoots as well as catwalk events along with the demonstration on how to do the look and going through the former on dealing with clients for consultations for their upcoming events. The special occasion make up course is repeated from the introduction to professional make up but this time it explains further onwards within the course. During the special occasion make up course, the trainer gave us a demonstration of how to do a bridal make up look she even used cream contouring and highlighting colours just to really define the make up look as well as transforming a face shape that they were born with into an ideal fit shape which is an oval face shape.

My original idea on the make up look that I was supposed to do is a colourful look for a catwalk/photo shoot but instead I ended up doing a bridal make up look on the student in stead stead of the original plan I had in mind and it came out amazingly well with the make up look that I created for her and she did the exact same thing on me on creating the make up look which came out really well with the look and also extremely glamorous as well. After both of us have completed the make up looks at each other we going to have the questions that we didn’t get a chance to do on the work and the best thing about doing his make up artistry courses from them is they don’t have an exam at the end of the session so that means it’ll be less pressure for you to handle and what I did afterwards from the training that I received from them is yet to come.

For more information on how to become a make-up artist or any other beauty courses that you want to learn from Ellison’s, the link is down below and also if anybody who wants to become a make-up artist internationally the links are also down below along with my inspirational idols:

https://www.ellisons.co.uk/

https://www.ellisons.co.uk/academy-dates

UK & International make up courses:

http://ima-make-up.com/ima-centers/

https://www.centralschoolofmakeup.co.uk/pages/ima

https://www.ak-beauty.com/

https://delamaracademy.co.uk/make-up-courses/

https://www.aofmakeup.com/makeup-courses/

https://www.makeupacademy.co.uk/make-up-courses-2018/ 

My inspirational idols:

http://www.michellephan.com/

https://www.urbandecay.co.uk/

https://www.urbandecay.com/

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog. I’m so sorry for the blog post being so long. Please stay tuned for the next post and don’t forget to leave a comment below on my blog post and spread the word out about my blog too. ???

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog will be based on the tragic moments I have been through since leaving the Capita traineeship programme as was looking after my mum for a short period of time and what was the conclusion about my brother afterwards what he suffered from the past few months so grab a snack ? or a drink ?, get comfortable ? oh and a box of tissues, because this blog post is going to be an emotional rollercoaster of a lifetime.

After finishing the traineeship from hell and finding out about my mum’s major injuries, I decided to look after my mum on a road to recovery and is still recovering on the injuries from the car accident ?. Things went from bad to worse in 4 months later, my brother had an appointment from the hospital and the appointment was scheduled to be nearly October time however they rang up earlier I need to say to rearrange it to 3 days early so I went for the appointment and as soon as they came back I asked my brother how it went with the appointment and I got nothing from him and when I asked my mum what happened within the appointment she told me that “they found a tumour in his brain” and I immediately started crying over the devastating news that I received ???.

What made it even worse was that it wasn’t one or two brain tumours that they found when he was going through his MRI scan, they managed to find 6 brain tumours and I was shocked on the fact that they’ve found 6 brain tumours and my thought that I had was playing in my mind, repeatedly over and over again like a record player saying to myself “Is my brother going to be alright and is he going to make it?” having a hard time taking in the tragic news that I received from my mum.

After finding out the shocking news about my brother’s brain tumours and looking after my mum on her injuries, it was time for them to go forward with the next part of the procedure in order to remove the brain tumours and that is to go and see a cancer/tumour specialist who deals with them on a daily basis on how to get rid of them the doctor has recommended my brother to go onto radiotherapy and he also said that he was going to make it. He was also given the schedule and what dates and times that he has to attend for his radiotherapy at the Centre in Coventry UK and it was pretty much every day except for weekends and Christmas Holidays.

While he is battling his brain tumour, one day my brother was going up the stairs and he managed to reach up to the top of the stairs and afterwards he fell down the stairs from the top and could have possibly have himself on the head, touchwood he didn’t actually get hurt so myself, my mum and dad came running as fast as we can to reach him there to see if he was okay and we managed to to get him back up on his feet and he was sitting on the stairs catching his breath and making sure he’s alright to go back upstairs. It was a wake-up call for us to realise that we need to keep an eye on him 24/7 every day no matter how long it takes for him to make sure he is alright.

As days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months he went through a tough battle with the tumours and he still remained strong and determined to conquer the obstacle in front of him in which some of the days that he goes for his treatment, he has to have a blood test done as well in order to see if the treatment is working well for him and we were seeing some positive results from the treatment that he was receiving from the Arden Centre. But the downside to him having his treatment done was that it also affected his organs from the treatment as well as medication he was having to take too.

After finishing off his treatment at the Arden Centre, we all went home and did his routine out of doing his medication and all of his medication has been continuous until we have some results. A few days after my birthday, we received a phone call from the doctors and the good news on that occasion was he’s got the all clear finally some good news that he has survived the brain tumours and all of us were praising for that for that brilliant news that we’ve just received we all had a group hug afterwards though to say that he’s got the all clear and he finally conquered the illness that was holding him back.

It’s on and on the first day without the tablets he was feeling great however as the days went by he started to get weaker than ever before in fact it was so bad that he couldn’t even get out of bed my mum had to call a need to figure out what to do, she was in tears trying to figure out what to do and I told him to bring him over to ana by car because if they ask for the ambulance it would take up to 2 hours, so we managed to bring him over to ana by car and along with his visit to A&E on the hospital bed and his temperature started to rise up to 200°c and he has been in the hospital for 10 days and some of those days he couldn’t remember the people who were there for him including our mum and she was heartbroken and devastated that he could remember her at all so she pretended to be his special nurse for him and to look after him and slowly bit by bit he started to regain his memory back and and also is started to be back on the mend and when I visited my brother asking him what he wanted from the shop and out of the blue said “Whispa gold”.

When my mum came back to check on him, I told her what he said to me and I mentioned it to her that he replied back to me out of the blue, he said he wanted Whispa gold and I didn’t put any words into his mouth or make him say that, he just said it by himself without any help at all and from that point we realised he’s getting his memory back. He managed to remember mum in 8 days when she came in one day wearing a red top as she usually wears when going out to places. For 10 days she slept on the chair with a fractured spine.

This blog post is a dedication to my brother Arvin Kaushal who went through this diagnosis hard and fought strong to survive as well as dedicating it to the brain tumour support UK who have been very helpful for my brother as well as my family and made him feel like that he is part of the group and I’m very grateful for that. I’m also making a special dedication to all the brain tumour/ cancer patients who are fighting through the diagnosis as well as their family and friends who are currently supporting them 100% and the survivors who survived the condition and commiserations for those who lost their loved ones from the disease too. If you would like to know further formation about Brain tumour support UK or any of the brain tumour support charities internationally the links are down below:

http://www.braintumoursupport.co.uk/

https://www.nationalbrainappeal.org/

https://www.thebraintumourcharity.org/

https://www.braintumourresearch.org/

https://theibta.org/

https://theibta.org/our-alliance/

https://theibta.org/other-useful-websites/

Don’t forget to check my brother’s blog out to see his side of life:

http://arvinkaushal.com/category/brain-tumour

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog. I’m so sorry for the blog post being so long and emotional. Please stay tuned for the next post and don’t forget to leave a comment below on my blog post and spread the word out about my blog too. ???

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog as you can see the name of the new blog post and it’s called my traineeship from hell ? and it does sound a bit harsh but this is from my experience of what happened since I left FWT along with the interviews that I went through from companies and even went onto a traineeship programme from Capita and I’ll be giving you my pure honest opinion about the traineeship on I went through so before you start reading this blog post I want you to read the disclaimer first before you start reading the blog post so grab a snack ?, get really comfortable ?, because this blog post is going to be a really long and interesting post ☕️?☕️?.

(DISCLAIMER: Please note that this is just my honest opinion on the experience that I had with Capita, what I went throughout the traineeship programme and my personal feelings about the traineeship, not the company altogether. I will do the best I can to keep it balanced on both positive and negative aspects on my experience but the majority of this blog post contains some harsh criticism on the experience that I went through on the interviews and the traineeship that I went to as well and I apologise to you if you find any of my opinions too hard to swallow.)

After leaving FWT and going for interviews from companies that don’t want me to work for them, due to my autism being a barrier for them instead of a benefit (their loss, my gain ?), it was time for me to move on with my life and I decided to go on a traineeship with Capita ?. But before I explain to you about what happened during the traineeship with Capita, I wanted to tell you about the interviews that I went through from the vacancies that I applied for during my time with FWT, which I forgot to mention it on my previous blog post (sorry for not mentioning it on my previous blog post ?) two of those companies that I went for an interview with are both based in Birmingham and both of those vacancies are based on customer service and both of them require me to do evening time as well.

From that point I wasn’t so sure if it was the right job for me, because I still need to make some time for my social life as well so I can have a balanced life with both work and social along with the terms and conditions of those vacancies in Birmingham and I didn’t get any of the two vacancies ?. After failing the two interviews I went to I went towards an agency that deals with admin, customer service etc and I got myself an appointment with the agency so they can test me up there with my English and Maths and my English results was okay but my Maths was a little so so, but luckily for me, I already got the qualifications in English and Maths that meet up to their standards.

I also mentioned to them that I have autism as well as informing them that it’s very mild too and I was told by them not to mention about it to the interviewer. After coming out of the appointment, I thought to myself “why can’t I mention to the interviewer about my mild autism? I mean they have a right to know about it along with the fact that any disability or difficulty that an individual has, it must be taken seriously, no matter what it is nor how it affects me on a daily basis.”

After I had the meeting with them and going through the tests, the recruitment consultant showed me some of the vacancies through email and I applied to one of the vacancies from the email that was sent to me and in a couple of days later I got a call from the agency and they told me that I got an interview with one of the companies for an apprenticeship. I went to interview with a massive bag, because after the interview I went straight over to work before I leave and the manager for the company I had the interview with was pretty much a nice guy but at the same time he’s a bit sceptical especially with some of the questions that that I answered didn’t come out right for him along with the fact that I told him about my mild autism he didn’t see it though as a benefit instead he looked at it as more of a barrier for him. Obviously I didn’t get the apprenticeship from the company and I was disheartened not because I didn’t get the apprenticeship. I was disheartened by the fact that he didn’t see my autism as a benefit for him which is discriminating me as the autistic woman.

After failing to get their apprenticeship from the company that discriminates autistic people, I then went on to a traineeship from Capita and when I first got into the traineeship course, The trainer was barely there and we had to wait for a really long time to wait for him to arrive and will kept waiting and waiting until eventually he wasn’t going to turn up so I decided to ditch it. The next day we arrived at the traineeship place and finally the trainer had arrived to the building. The traineeship started of bad when it comes to getting out the smart phones out and I was very impatient and getting frustrated at that time for waiting a website to load and eventually I wanted to take a breather and walk away from it obviously from his standards and the ICE building standards it wasn’t acceptable to do that but although there were some bumps on the road but I still managed to get along well with some people who were in the traineeship.

However during my 5 weeks with the traineeship programme, there have been more negative than positive and I will do the best I can to balance them out between the two and one of them was on the favouritism between myself and a few girls in there. Especially with one person who was given the special treatment from the trainer of the programme majority of the time and doing the work that the trainer was doing so she could become a trainer herself at Capita instead of working in another company that are deals with customer service and the actual company is called Transport For London (TFL and talk about an ultimate teachers pet ?) which is connected to the Capita company, myself and the other students went on a tour around the building on how the company works.

While I was doing my experience on the traineeship with Capita, I have to do some of the work at home until some time in the afternoon my dad came home and told me that my mum is at the hospital and also informed me that my mum and brother got into an car accident and when I heard the tragic news, my heart just dropped down and I was even in tears, but at the same time I was worried about them “Are they alright?” “How bad are they hurt?” When I arrived at A&E of the hospital, my brother was already there waiting to see what happens next and I tried to give him a hug, he pushed me away from him and didn’t even want to acknowledge my sympathy for him and was even beating himself up mentally for what he had done to himself and mum as well as my uncle being there as well to comfort me.

My brother suffered from a swollen heel. However my mum got most of the damage in which she got a fractured spine and has two slightly fractured fingers on her right hand along with a swollen shoulder. When I got home from my visit to the hospital and my aunt decided to ring telling her about what happened and the soon as I told her about the accident she got in the car took the girls with her and got everything sorted out as she drove herself all the way from Slough to Coventry just to see me and everyone else who has been affected from the incident. The next day I’ve picked up the phone and decided to call the trainer up and explained what happened and he too was actually shocked about what happened to my mum and when I returned back into the classroom, the trainer asked me if my mum was alright and I informed him on the condition of my mum and my response to that question towards him was that “she suffered from a fractured spine and two swollen fingers, but apart from the two major injuries she has, she’s alive and well.”

I knew my mum was a tough cookie and I also knew that she was going to be alright and I explained to him that “she’s a tough cookie and she’s going to be alright” I was remaining positive from the tragic incident that happened to my mum, but the trainer response was “she’s not going to be alright, she’s at the hospital” and when the other girl who was present in the classroom (aka teachers pet ?) heard about what happened to my mum, she started questioning it too and asked me two questions and one of them was “what happened to your mum?” and I explained to her about what happened and then she asked me “who was driving at the time of the incident?” My reply was “My brother” and her response was “you’ve got bad parents” my response back to her was “well at least my parents are still together” as for her step sister by the way was a complete spoiled brat had an argument with a step sister and I tried to tell her to get on with her work and she decided to walk away from the classroom after telling her off about focusing on her work and not arguing with her step sister.

She even came up with an excuse on the fact that she wasn’t arguing with her sister and she was discussing loudly with her instead ?. Apart from all the negative experience that I had to go through along with capita traineeship and the car accident that happened to my mum and brother, I’ve learnt a lot when I was on the traineeship and even made some good friends and memories to remember as well as learning what the company has to offer from TFL and I’ve learned about the expanded version on customer service and how it works in the first place along with some advise on becoming a mentor/coach and the the support I needed in order to move forward too. As for my mum and brother, well you have to wait until the next blog post to find out what happens next.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog. I’m so sorry for the blog post being so long. Please stay tuned for the next post and don’t forget to leave a comment below on my blog post and spread the word out about my blog too. ???

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog will be basically continuing with my experience with FWT. This will include the good, the bad and the outrageous times that happened to me, along with the tasks that I have done within a short amount of time, the people I met and my overall experience with FWT, so grab a snack ? get comfortable ?, because this blog post that you’re going to read ? is very interesting.

(DISCLAIMER: Please note that this is on my personal experience working with them based on what I went through and not a review. Just because I went through some of the rough experiences, it doesn’t mean that they are bad company to work with, in fact they are amazing people to work with and they provide amazing services for their customers and staff)

When I first started working at FWT, it was really good at first. I met the staff of the company and they are much nicer people I’ve ever met than some of the people working in the job shop ? and they were really making sure that I was taking part in any of the tasks provided, no matter what it is or what it could be. I even helped out with the coffee mornings that usually happens on Wednesday morning and Friday morning. The Wednesday coffee mornings is usually located around Hill Fields Coventry and the Friday coffee mornings are usually located in FWT and within the time period we have to provide an activity that can keep them occupied the world to have a coffee and tea at the same time along with some biscuits to have too ?.

During my time with and FWT there have been some bumps on the road including one time when I was supposed to happen right now but I was sitting there actually have a conversation and having a meal that we all participated in making but at the same time but when I was having a conversation with one of the lectures of the healthy hearts program which we used to have though and after everybody who was in the club gone, one pacific lady who works for FWT told myself and the other person with us and give us a little wording she gave one person all the positives and telling me with the negatives are telling me that I didn’t do anything at all though and told me to eat less and to concentrate with the task in hand.

After finishing off a day at work that I want her and that I started crying towards my mum and she said what’s wrong and I told her this person was telling me off for absolutely no reason for the task at hand I even told I did fall off a bit but she told me to eat less and to concentrate with the task in hand, I don’t understand I need to concentrate with the task in hand however it doesn’t mean she can insult me based on my body figure what I was actually participating and what really angered me the most though was I was actually one of the participants who was taking part in a healthy hearts project ?. Which she asked us a couple of days ago if we would be interested in taking part and we both said yes on taking part of the healthy hearts project so we can get a feeling what it’s like to be involved with it and we can also recommend over to other people who wanted to do the exact same thing as we were doing.

Although from that experience we started off with a rough patch, but as we go along within the time period we tend to work well together and even had fun doing it along with working on ways to promote activity in a way we went straight to hand out leaflets we actually spoke to the people who actually interested on taking part on activity and even started planning out activities over the next couple of weeks for coffee mornings for both Wednesday morning and Friday morning ?. We even managed to work together on planning out lessons that for the next group of people who are interested in learning to do some computer work and have others out with their work including creating a CV having to looking for jobs and and even worked together on creating leaflets for the upcoming sessions for coffee morning.

There are two things that happened to me that were outrageous to me and both of them are based on the language that I speak in. When I was helping in a room with a few ladies on an IT course, to whom one of them were saying to me “why don’t you speak in you mother tongue?” at that time I was too hesitant to say something about it and the other lady said to me “if you’re working in a place like FWT, you must be able to speak in the language that you were given” at that moment I kept my mouth shut the entire time thinking that these people are wrong because if I start speaking mother tongue just to please them, it will feel like I’m destroying another part of me.

Another outrageous moment that happened to me was still based on the same topic, but this time that one person had decided to cross the line and it all happened in coffee morning on Friday and we were doing quilling. During our session on quilling, the lady asked me about my cookery skills that and I said it with honesty “I don’t cook as much as I should.” But that was fine she was like okay but you need to do more but when she came up to me about the language I explain to her that it will be too much for me to handle i.e. I would easily get mixed up with the two languages and what she said to me really frustrated me the most and her response was “you’ve got bad parents” and my response back to her was “if I have bad parents I won’t be standing here in front of you.”

Apart from all the bad things that happened to me there have been some good things that happened to me during my time with FWT and what other things is after participating with a healthy hearts club in which I’ve helped around with the warm-ups that I demonstrated with them from my kickboxing training (coming soon ?) from my back then 12 years which is now 15 years of training, including some of the warm ups that I did during training into learning some of the basic techniques.

My overall experience with FWT has been absolutely amazing and even though there were some ups and downs along the way, we still managed to get along as a team and I truly loved working with them. I had a great time from the experience of working with them. From meeting people and helping them with their basic IT skills into having a lot of conversations in coffee mornings, activities planning for the upcoming weeks, putting everything away from the coffee morning sessions, meeting the people at the front desk as well as doing the admin work and even going out on the streets in order to spread the word out about FWT too ??.

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Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and todays blog post will be on my experience working with Foleshill Women’s Training (FWT) including how I got the job the interview process along with the terms and conditions that was included with the opportunity as well as the interview process that was involved within the YPEPS scheme, So grab a snack ?and get comfortable ?, because this blog post is going to be an interesting one.

I found out about the job vacancy from YPEPS, which was found at the job shop at the window, which was during my time doing work experience at the job shop and I told one of the staff members from YPEPS about the vacancy and has already managed put forward a cover letter for the vacancy and my CV being attached and managed to send them over. The only downside to this there is that the work placement only lasts for six months. A couple days later, I received an email about applying for the YPEPS vacancy and told me the date and time as well as where to go for the interview.

Before I even got there to the actual place for the interview I had to do some research though and also ring them up there to find out where is it based though as well as me and my mum went to on a trip to find out where it is so I’m aware of the location and thank goodness I managed to get there on time and I was feeling a bit nervous as well for the interview. The funny thing about it is that on the email, the timing for the interview was 11:15am, but we arrived there two hours early and what I mean “we” I meant me and my mum as well as the fact that my mum thought that the interview was 9:15am ?. Even though I arrived two hours early for the interview, it still gave me the chance to do some last minute research on FWT by looking around the room and and to see what’s around me and obviously of course I did do some research at home before the interview.

Luckily I took some deep breaths before they called me in and they asked me some questions about the role for the ICT coordinator and there were two other girls were also going for the role before me. After waiting for a very long time, it was my turn to go forward for the interview and to be asked on the questions about the role and what I know about the company as well as what I’ve been doing this since leaving the previous jobs and my response to them was that I had work experience and all of those work experience placements are not paid at all ?.

There were some questions from the interview that I was hesitant about it so I asked them to repeat it again and then I gave them my answer afterwards and there were also some questions in the interview that I was confident on and they even asked me if I had any questions of my own and I literally asked them was “When will I find out if I have the job” and “Is there any other training that I needed to do?” After coming out of the interview, I thought a bit tense so me and my mum went back home after catching two buses and it just feels like I needed some rest afterwards.

I received a phone call from FWT asking me if I was available on a certain date and I said yes and their response was I will see you on this date coming and that’s on time meaning I’ve actually got the job ?? and I says I put the phone down and told my mum the news, she was in tears and I was also in tears as well and finally getting to realise that thank goodness there is somebody out there that does see a potential in me ☺️ and as result of the news I went straight over to the job centre and told them about the news and the two were thrilled and then the next stop was the job shop and I told my advisor about the interview and I told them the good news and she too was over the moon when I told her the news.

As I managed to close one chapter and opened up a new one, I arrived at FWT there is another entrance on the side that only staff to go through and myself and two other people coming into the building and I how to introduce myself to the two ladies arrived and they were the nicest sweetest ladies that I ever met and this is just the beginning of my six-month placement and unfortunately the downside to this is that it didn’t guarantee me a full-time job ?.

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Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog post will be basically continuing my work placements from the one company Beyond 2030 and from leaving there going into the job centre going through a two week training program to see if I’m actually capable on getting an apprenticeship with the job centre as well as my other work experiences that I went through I will be going through the good the bad and the horrifying experiences that I went through, so grab a snack?and get comfortable ?, because this blog post will be a long and interesting one too ?☕️.

After telling the main trainer before I actually got into the work experience and volunteering with the beyond 2030 is what I told him that I had autism and his reply is that “everyone has autism, in fact normally everyone who comes into the session is and what I told him “no I actually have autism” he was in shock that he didn’t know I actually have it, which I forgot to mention it on from my previous blog (sorry for not mentioning it from there ?)

When I was working with beyond 2030, I’ve learned so much from there including helping out people who are struggling with the work that was being provided, filling up the jugs of water, making sure the tea and coffee is already prepared as well as helping out those who needed additional help with the work being provided from the work folders. The best thing about helping out beyond 2030, going from a work experience placement into voluntary is getting to know the people a bit better and getting to realise the main relationship between student and a teacher, just realising it came from schools both primary and secondary as well as from college and university too ?.

After finishing my voluntary experience with Beyond 2030, it’s time for me to try something else though and that is to get an opportunity to gain an apprenticeship with the job centre doing customer service that was given to me by the job centre and from that point on I thought to myself, maybe I should give it a try and see what happens, so I went in at the job centre to see what was going on along with a group of young people doing exact same thing with me as well and experience whether it’s completely different first we had to go through the main entrance of the job centre, then we went through to the security office to sign in and they have taken us over to a meeting room where they go to explain to us how the program works and we basically continued it for two weeks.

The good news is that I got the experience that I needed when going through the two weeks program during my time there you have to go through a computer program that you have to learn for a short period amount of time and if you can pick it up well if you’re guaranteed for apprenticeship and if you didn’t pick up the pace, you’re won’t be available to get it. Unfortunately for me I didn’t actually get the apprenticeship, however I did get an additional two more weeks to go through my work experience at the job centre to see what it’s like though to go upfront in person as well as making guides on how to create social media accounts and finding job vacancies for the people who are looking for jobs and making the job vacancies presentable too.

After finishing off the four week work experience placement at the job centre, it was time for me to try working at the retail sector and I was strongly against it at first, because to me it felt a bit boring for me to work at and not being challenging, but my boss convinced me to give it a try and see what happens. I gave it a shot at a charity shop and luckily it wasn’t even far from the job centre so I can sign it back up for this many times as I can and from working in there is where the good the bad and the ugly starts to kick in. The good thing about working in there is that there are people out there who actually do understand where you’re coming from especially with the manager who actually understands me for the fact that I have autism and has told me on where I went wrong privately away from the customers.

The bad thing I had from working there is when I’ve made that very same mistake The assistant manager told me off about the front of customers and that is really wrong what is already been disciplined by the manager and not only that The assistant manager and another volunteer who recently started volunteering in the shop had started complaining the situation to her as if they were BFFs along with that is I have to work until 5 PM, which is also missing out my personal life too, but apart from those bad things that happened in there, we still managed to go along well in there and even learned for the fact that majority of the funding goes to charity and whatever stock is leftover get shipped out towards other countries who needed it the most.

After leaving the charity shop and attempted to go towards another educational program as well as getting dismissed very early, because of their criteria didn’t match to their standards at all, I decided to do a two week work placement with the job shop and this is where the horrific experience comes into play. From working at the job shop it was great at first but as I was getting along with the tasks involved and the people to talk to, especially with one person though he told me to take advantage of it though well I can within the two week work placement and he was absolutely right and I did take about a job out there by applying more job vacancies within the job shop that helped me increase my chances of getting a job. There have also been some bad times working there, especially with this one pacific person who surprisingly still works there ??.

While I was working there, The specific person told me to tell the person who is working on the computer to stay a little longer as much as he likes just to make him feel comfortable about himself and this person sadly is homeless and I followed her advice exactly on what she told me and I was told him that “you can stay here as much as you like” and he said “no no that’s fine I’m just about to go” and after I followed her advice and told him to stay has much as he likes she gave me a tongue lashing, right in front of everybody who works there as well as the customers in the job shop how pathetic is that ??? and just to make things even more worse as it was before when I was helping out a customer based on his login issues, so I helped him out as much as I can, but I couldn’t figure it out and have to ask for help from the team and tell me to go help someone else out and out they will get it sorted out.

Another incident that happened on the same day is when I helped out another customer out based on his CV and I gave him the option on asking for help from a job coach and he said no, so I helped him out with the CV and it was basically it was adding in parts to his CV and surprise surprise the very same envious job coach decided to intervene once again and said “what are you doing over there you shouldn’t be helping this guy at all, go help someone else” and who she’s on about there to help someone else was the very same guy who had login issues and was already been dealt with, talk about unprofessionalism and I don’t really see why didn’t the manager step in and deal with this person in the first place ????.

Despite the negative experience that I got from working with this specific person and I even got some positives from the other work colleagues, I’ve learnt so much from working in the job shop including meeting people and assisting them with their job search activities, working on the photocopier, changing the printer ink, arranging and rearranging leaflets and handouts as well as proofreading their application forms and their CVs too ????.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my other work experiences blog and I’m so sorry for having the blog post really long. Please stay tuned for the next post which will be on my experience with Foleshill Women’s Training (FWT) and don’t forget to leave a comment below on my blog post and spread the word out about my blog too. ???

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog post will be on my work experiences since leaving work in a primary school and I’ve got so much to tell you on what I’ve been through ever since I left, I will be telling you the experiences that I went through going through the job centre and the experiences that I went through during my time there and my inspiration to change career path from being a teaching assistant into becoming a mentor/coach, so grab a snack ? and get comfortable ?, because this blog post is going to be a long one.

Ever since I left working in a primary school in December 2010, I decided to go on Jobseeker’s Allowance (JSA) so I can look for work and I get paid at the same time, unfortunately there are some obstacles along my way and when I was on Jobseeker’s Allowance, one of those things happened within the experience is that they swapped me around for every six months. For example if you sign in downstairs and you tell them what you been up to in the past two weeks and you told them the amount of jobs you applied for and they will tell you when you are going to get paid.

If you were about the sign in on that week and you told them the reason why you did not apply for any jobs whatsoever, because you had to revise for an exam that you’re trying to gain a qualification in that sector or having issues at home/going through some personal problems in life, that means you will be given a letter that will take you to another building where you have to listen to the people who work at the job centre telling you the importance on signing in on a regular basis as well as applying for jobs and the essential part on filling in the book.

The book that I was given by the job centre was clearly based on what jobs that I applied for, the time and date that you applied for, what will be the next action for you do and when will you find out about the outcome of it too. Along with applying for jobs is also the management to apply for it, i.e applying for it online or by hand with the application form and even in some cases that you have to provide evidence to prove to them that you applied for the job along with the outcome of it too ?.

After applying for a number of jobs as a teaching assistant and gaining no success for applying nor getting the actual job, however I did managed to get through to interviews, I even went through to teaching agencies in order to increase my chances on finding work but unfortunately I received no luck and the biggest problem I have though was finding references especially the work reference from back then the deputy headmistress who had a no nonsense approach and she never even gave me a chance to speak for myself at all ? the kind of treatment that I was given by her was outrageous and shocking too.

During my time at applying for jobs I also went to a company called Sencia that helped me increase my chances of getting a job and even in some cases I even had some interviews from agencies and even got some advice and guidance there on how to update on my curriculum vitae (CV), the hints and tips on going through to an interview as well as the courses that are provided by them in order to increase my chances of finding work. Unfortunately in that case it didn’t last long and I went back to the job centre and they also gave me a letter to go over to the job shop and listen to what the workers have to say on this upcoming reasons why we couldn’t get any work and I was given a letter to attend a course from the job shop and the name of the course and was given the time and date to start the course.

I went onto a course that was provided by the job shop and the company was called Beyond 2030 and what I was learning from them was level 1 in employability and from that point on, my life has changed completely and I realised that I wanted to become a mentor/coach instead of a teaching assistant and I felt really great and astonished about making this career change. I was given the advice about learning to do PTLLS (Preparing to Teach in the Lifelong Learning Sector) which is now changed into AET (Award in Education and Training).

I even told the job centre about making a career change and the reaction that I got from them was a negative one and they started questioning about my career change and was not even looking at it in a positive prospective point of view ?. Despite the negative reaction that I have received from them, I still decided to follow my career aspiration on becoming a mentor/coach and I remained positive from that point even though it didn’t guarantee me a job, but I still gained the experience that I wanted to have on what it’s like to become an assistant mentor.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my other work experiences blog. Please stay tuned for the next post which will be other work experiences being continued and don’t forget to leave a comment below on my blog post and spread the word out about my blog too. ???

Hi everyone and welcome back to my blog and today’s blog will be on my continued work life as a Teaching Assistant (TA) going from volunteering twice a week in reception to working full time as a so called student teaching assistant along with the benefits on being a teaching assistant and the drawbacks on working as a teaching assistant, so grab a snack ? and get comfortable, because this blog is going to be a long one.

As I continued to volunteer at a primary school and was doing as I was told to do by the deputy headmistress, deep inside of me, I felt a bit disappointed that I couldn’t challenge myself with a higher age group and being capable enough to move forward being thought to her mind that it would be too hard for me to handle it and at the same time, so I was pretty left with no choice, but to help around with the children in reception, but at least it’s something to work with and the staff in reception are good with it as well ?.

When I first started working in reception, I was nervous ? on what I got myself into especially with the children, they never see a new face coming over to them and helping them out. After bringing the children into the classroom and settling down, it was time for the teacher to introduce me to the children and had a mixed reaction from the children. Despite the fact that they’ve never seen a new person coming into the classroom for the first time and some of them were happy to see me and some of them were confused or even excited to see me in reception helping them out in the classroom.

Normally in year 2, they have a routine on what is going to happen on certain days of the week and even on when to have breaks and even give out homework to the children to complete over the weekend. However with the reception, once they have done their session, they go and play with the activities being provided by the teachers and it gets hectic most of the time ? and even the teachers try to attempt the children and gave them encouragement to put them away and for some of the teaching assistants have to put them away and clear everything away and then come back into helping the children out.

On how I received my full-time payment from a company is by the aspire scheme and what they do though is basically to help those who are actually trying to get into work who have actually got learning difficulties or disabilities. The only downside on this is that it will only last up to 9 months, however on the plus side you get the feeling of what it’s like to work full time and if you do well on your nine month work placement, you’ll be guaranteed a full-time job. Unfortunately I didn’t get the full-time job and when I questioned the deputy headmistress on where I went wrong and how I can improve on it for the next time, the man from the aspire scheme next to me said “there isn’t going to be a next time because you didn’t get the job in the first place” ? instead of helping me to improve on myself they actually gave me other options that are below my career aspirations and I felt really sad and angry about this experience and I was really passionate on improving myself better but instead I was pretty much going backwards on finding a job instead of going forward ?.

I started working full time in a primary school in March 2010 and finished working in that very same primary school till December 2010. During my new adventure on helping out with the children in reception, there have been some ups and downs when it comes to helping out in reception including helping a child with multiplication and the teacher didn’t have the guts to tell me not to teach them multiplying. If he told me not to teach them about it, I would have been fine with it, but instead he didn’t say anything about it until I mentioned it to him and when I told him about it, he told me not to teach them multiplication and the reason for it is because that they will not understand how multiplication works anyway ?.

Along the way of my journey some of the teaching assistants decided to bully me based on my appearance including one time when I scratch my head and format that is based on sweat in my scalp and when I told her that my head was itchy because of sweat, she still denied it and was still convened that was nits. From that point on I was angry that she didn’t acknowledge the fact that I was sweating from my kickboxing session that I had from the previous day ?. The same pacific teaching assistant thought I had nits and was talking negative things about me behind my back, who still managed to get away with murder and clearly doesn’t deserve to work in a school at all.

Another incident occurred when the supply to teaching assistant and the other teacher were having a conversation about the children and the staff all together and to make things worser than ever before, the so-called supply teaching assistant considered me as acting like one of the kids, literally the same place as the other teaching assistant has said about me and that is right behind my back ?. I was so angry that she said that about me and I really wanted to speak up about this, but the problem with that is if I tried to speak up about it, they will give me dirty looks, they would never trust me again and even worse they will consider me as a snitch.

Despite all the negative things that happened to me, there have been some positive experiences that happened to me in my life for example I managed to gain some experience working in a lower year groups meeting new children, getting to know the new staff especially the new ones and meeting the parents and asking for my opinion on how that child have done and I gave them my honest opinion I know you told them to expect to go speak to the main teacher because they are the ones that deal with them the most and I’ve got some thank you gifts from the parents which was so sweet and grateful that I’ve actually managed to help out on some the children out and I really felt appreciated with the amount of experience on working in a school ☺️.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my continued work life as a Teaching Assistant (TA) blog and I’m so sorry for being so long. Please stay tuned for the next post which will be other work experiences and don’t forget to leave a comment below on my blog post and spread the word out about my blog too. ???